I am feeling scared and alone,my past haunts me wherever I go.Panicked with fear of the unknown.Always never to know as to why I'm tormented so.I just have to shut my trap and my problems will be only known to me,cause  truth is no one gives a shit no matter what been done .Its my fault I feel unwanted and helpless.Now I have lost all hope in ever feeling connected to anyone who thought I was worth their time and affection.I should have killed myself long ago.Now I can see I really blew it.It would've been grand in the master plan I call life.It is but a game played by those fit enough to survive the heartache and not feel for justification they make-up lets them feel no remorse for me ever.